Though My enemies surround me, my God surrounds my enemies! – S.Furtick
It is time to get real. Here is the good, the bad, and the ugly (backwards!).
The Ugly: For the past 6 months, my marriage has been like falling off a cliff. Do you remember the Roadrunner and Wile E. Coyote from Looney Tunes? Wile E. Coyote would always be running a ways off a cliff before he realized he was “running through air” then inevitably falling a significant distance to the ground which landed him in a cloud of dust billowing up… well, that has been what my marriage has looked like lately. In all honesty, the Enemy (Lucifer, Satan, the Devil, whichever name you choose) has been trying to destroy our relationship since we first met back in 2005. He is scared of what we can do together; of what God has planned for us to accomplish together. His Agenda is Destruction. His Strategy is Division. His tactic is Offense. And he is VERY good at doing this. Time and time again, we have fallen for the lies of what might look or sound better in the moment; in each moment the separation between us continued to grow which led us to what we thought was finally the end. Through it all, God was with us. He may not have stopped the offenses, He may have seen us coming undone, but He would not allow us to be destroyed – He knew what we needed and He provided it. In His timing (of course, not mine), He sent angels our way to protect us and guide us back to the road that we belong on together. In His timing, He is shifting the mountains. We no longer welcome our enemies to linger. Our hearts will remain steadfast. We are ONE in His eyes and in ours. WE WILL FIGHT.
A Christian’s life is not a playground, it is a battleground. – S.Furtick
The Bad: For we are not fighting against flesh-and-blood enemies, but against evil rulers and authorities of the unseen world, against mighty powers in this dark world, and against evil spirits in the heavenly places. (Eph. 6:12). The Enemy will continue to stir up trouble, remind us of old wounds, and try to create a new divide between the two of us. Personally, I know how hard it is to stop the thoughts that trigger certain emotions when the gears start churning. I’ve seen it happen time and time again; I’ve been through it, time and time again. If he can get you to think of all that you “should’ve done” or “should’ve said” but didn’t, then he’s got you hooked. If that mind frame continues, it will eat you up and you will become filled with anger, hatred, discontent, etc. I know that it’s hard but I encourage you to dive into prayer when this happens. Remember that God created you to be apart of His family; He is on your side. When the enemy reminds you of your past, remind him of his future and tell him: not this time, just back the $#@! off!
The Good: …because the Spirit who lives in you is greater than the spirit who lives in the world. (1 John 4:4). No matter what our mistakes are or have been, God loves us. He will never write us off as too far gone. If we accept His Saving Grace, we are redeemed. Learning to live like Him has been a struggle. We have fallen into sin and He has brought us back. We have been consumed by things of this world and we have believed the Enemy’s lies, and yet, God still loves us enough to welcome us into His arms when we call upon His name. If we remain focused, keeping our hearts steadfast, and God at the center of our marriage, nothing will successfully tear us apart. I pray that you understand and are encouraged by knowing that God is bigger than any of our mistakes.
I will cling to the One who knew me before I was born. I will hold on tight to all that He has given me. I will not allow fear to have a place in my life. I know that I am strong, I am beautiful, I am worthy. I will no longer believe the lies the Enemy feeds me. I will not waver even when I am weak. I will be steadfast in my marriage. I will be a wife in pursuit…
I WILL FIGHT!
I made the decision to share this fight because there is someone out there who is going through the same fight. Our society has made this fake world that we all stand behind a heart emoji. We need to know that it is okay to feel and that we are not alone. YOU ARE NOT ALONE! So many share the same experiences and through sharing our experiences allows healing to begin, not only for ourselves but for others who have been there. Life takes a village – our society has gotten away from that and depression has taken many lives due to being isolated. It is time to break the silence and isolation by coming together, being real, and encouraging each other. I pray that you will be encouraged by knowing that you’re not alone, that God is bigger than all of our mistakes and He loves you more than you could ever imagine!
Thank you for loving us regardless. Thank you for your unending mercy and grace. I ask that in our time of trouble, you will surround us with your peace and comfort. I pray for your strength and encouragement. Keep our minds focused, our hearts steadfast, and lead us according to your purpose. We will cling to you, come what may. We are more than conquerors through Him who loves us. In your name, we pray – Amen.
With love in Christ,